Godspeed ♡

OMG BACK AT IT AGAIN. Hey yall.

Ya girl is backkkk with yet again another gem. (And I mean that so humbly. lol)

It's like this blog is broken into so many layers from when I first started it in 2018. Reading my previous pieces and reflecting on how much has happened and changed is so mind blowing. And to see how eloquently I've been able to communicate those feelings, stories, and experiences into words for you guys to read over the years makes me feel so good inside. Because ya'll.......

I DO NOT GET PAID FOR THIS SHIT! lol

However, writing, blogging, creating, is something I've actually enjoyed. It's where I find peace in stillness and strength through my words. With that being said, I'm glad you're here because......HOLD UP WAIT A MINIUTE, YA'LL THOUGHT I WAS FINISHED??? I know the consistency I've wanted with posting hasn't always been "consistent", but I discovered when I let a couple months go by and let life play its course, that's usually when I'm able to show up as my true authentic self. Quality trumps quantity. My creativity has no bounds. So, with that being said let's get straight to it.

Now, I don't know about everyone else, but lately things have been feeling significantly harder, tiresome, tighter, sad, uncomfortable, uncertain, scary, fast, sudden, emotional, etc. (Yes, I'm aware inflation plays a significant part) But this is the part of the blog that they're not talking about on Instagram, Tik Tok, Facebook, etc. It's easy to post when shit is "UP" but who is openly discussing when things are down? Between work, bills, mental health, slight/minor inconveniences, $20 milk, maintaining a healthy lifestyle, keeping up with friends/family, AN ENTIRE WAR going on outside, it's like damn can the people catch A BREAAAAKKKKK???? My mind and body lost all perception of time after 2020 and things truly have not let up since.

At moments you start to question if life is only happening to you because naturally it's easier for people to fake like everything is all together because even if it's not, who is actually willing to help? However, I'm here to give it to you as real as possible and let ya'll know that despite how heavy things may feel right now, the only way out is through. Regardless of whatever you may be going through or how you may be feeling, your existence during this time was not a coincidence. Every tear, trial, tribulation, hardship, late bill, missed payment, failed relationship, etc. was bound to happen prior to your existence. However, when navigating through those tough spaces never forget that when God doesn't keep you from something, he preserves you in it, until you come out of it.

Hate to get all "holy" because I try to keep my spiritual beliefs and views separate from my writing, but the only thing that has been getting me through these days is knowing I serve an intentional and powerful God. In knowing that, I have moved better in releasing control from things that are truly above me. With things being how they are in the world, we're all on this robotic hamster wheel trying to make it to the next day but forgetting to be grateful for a lot even when it feels like a little bit. Forgetting to be grateful for that job even on the days we don't feel like going. Frustrated at the bill but forgetting to appreciate the fact that there's money to pay for it. Scared about what the future may look like, yet had it not been for God's grace thus far, there would be no future to think about. (Let that one digest a little).

Are things hard? YES. Are things tiring, draining, expensive, frustrating, etc.? YES. However, is God a healer, a way maker, a provider, a protector? YES. With current life/global circumstances the world is trying their best to make us lose faith, belief, strength, etc. But with GOD (*clears throat*MY GOD) the world will never win in any form of adversity sent to destroy me.

Everything happens for you, never to you. Stay prayed up. Have gentle thoughts. Know there's more working for you than against you. Godspeed a l w a y s .

THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE. THANK YOURSELF FOR BEING HERE.

-Niyah